just another diamond day

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2009-04-02T23:32:39Z

1. I'm going to China in May
2. I'm living in San Francisco this summer

3. Studying poetry makes me feel useless, but happy
4. Studying race theory makes me feel useful, but unhappy
5. Currently I am studying both

6. This has been a long year
7. I have learned a lot

8. Now, I'm comfortable being alone
9. Now, I'm comfortable living with friends

Hello

2008-04-19T05:35:20Z

1. There is nothing like being young and in love in Brooklyn, during the summer.
2. I will keep those memories forever

last post.

2008-03-08T16:08:33Z

1. After January and part of February I don't trust modern medicine
2. Everything is back to normal
3. It's getting warm here
4. I am quitting smoking
5. The mod(s) are all figured out
6. And I would love to actually live with these 10 people
7. I never want to go home

chivalry

2008-02-11T20:45:47Z

1. it felt so nice
2. to be walked home
3. just to make sure
4. that I wouldn't slip
5. and to talk just
6. a little bit more
7. and nothing
8. nothing else

helsabots @ 2008-02-08T23:38:00

2008-02-09T04:45:54Z

1. My room is filled with paint and children's books

2. Last night we rocked on our heels
3. Last night we shuffled and slipped on thin coatings of ice

5. Last night we didn't really try that hard

6. I can't wait until spring

7. I can't wait to ride bikes
8. I can't wait to wear shorts
9. I can't wait to read in the grass
10. I can't wait to climb apple trees
11. I can't wait to run
12. I can't wait to wear cute traction-less flats
13. I can't wait to dance in front of the Yurt to music that no one really likes
14. I can't wait

Tiny tornadoes, deers and doe

2008-01-31T06:27:34Z

How do you:

1. Let someone know that you never really liked them, who never really liked you
2. Meet someone for the third time

I never want to forget how to speak English.

2008-01-25T03:55:35Z

Oh. You know, who knows?
Maybe third time's the charm,
and maybe third time's the charm?

helsabots @ 2008-01-17T02:44:00

2008-01-17T07:51:01Z

New plan:

1. Finish drawing one
2. Learn Italian
3. Spend as much of my summer as possible either
a) At Perelandra
b) In Ocean City
c) In Arizona + California with Dinah and Lia
4. Get out of college in one piece
5. Move to Milan
6. Forget how to speak English

helsabots @ 2008-01-13T15:46:00

2008-01-13T20:51:25Z

if i make anymore mistakes this week i am going to have to change colleges

helsabots @ 2008-01-10T00:15:00

2008-01-10T05:22:31Z

1. It's over, again.
(and all my fault as usual)
2. I lost my glasses.
3. No more facebook.
4. New plan for the new year is to just not go crazy.

helsabots @ 2008-01-06T17:43:00

2008-01-06T22:48:41Z

Well.
I must be the most horrible girl in the world,
to always end up in situations like this.

new years resolutions

2008-01-05T20:33:08Z

1. Don't stress out when asked to do contour drawings
2. Try hard not to freeze to death in the woods
3. Stop worrying about their being someone/thing under my bed at all times
4. Get rid of some old clothes
5. Ice skate on a frozen pond
6. Get my bike fixed
7. Talk louder
8. Get into shape for pilates and in general
9. Draw more
10. Sleep more

oh...
I still don't know.

helsabots @ 2007-12-31T18:54:00

2008-01-01T00:00:35Z

1. Scrabble dictionary
2. Yellow cloth belt
3. Three burned discs
4. Three pieces of lined paper
5. A silver cocktail dress

6. In general, I still really just don't know.

(7) Watching stars behind Enfield?

helsabots @ 2007-12-18T18:50:00

2007-12-18T23:57:04Z

1. Yeah...

2. I just don't really know.

3. Tea
4. Knee high socks
5. 'Pookie'
6. Trains
7. Glasses

helsabots @ 2007-12-07T14:23:00

2007-12-07T19:34:52Z

1. I miss the cornfield
2. and the green grass
3. and impromptu shows at the yurt

4. I miss riding my bicycle
5. and wearing cute flats
6. and jeans without tights and leggings underneath them

7. I miss running without the fear of slipping on quiet black ice
8. and I miss drinking wine straight out of the bottle in a semi circle in the field

9. college has become normal, home, understandable; often small and sometimes silent
10. it's manageable here, the work takes up the day, the people fill up the night
10. there isn't much that I want that isn't here: just some sidewalk and warm weather

11. in the winter though, it is a cocoon, wrapped in wet, white snow

helsabots @ 2007-11-22T11:31:00

2007-11-22T16:32:13Z

1. last night was one of the best nights of my life
2. let's pretend we're bunny rabbits

.124

2007-11-10T06:18:27Z

1. Yoko Ono
2. Rabbits
3. Broken bicycles
4. Boston
5. Unfortunately two weeks
6. Fortunately two weeks
7. Midnight diner
8. A lovely package from PJM
9. Missing N, T, S, E, J, P, J
10. Drawing in January
11. Boots and thick socks
12. Fur collard coats
13. Doves' nests and dollar bills
14. Running
15. Band of Horses
16. Joy rides
17. I love Dinah
18. Nothing is ever on the radio

.123

2007-10-31T04:02:09Z

1. Things are good.
2. The woods are cold.
3. I am writing a portrait of my mother.
4. Soup + toast.
5. Swans.
6. Broken heaters, mended hearts.
7. Late night telephone calls.
8. Porcelain cats the size of finger tips.
9. Long car rides.
10. Dance music.
11. Rain.

122.

2007-10-14T18:59:38Z

Ain't no telling what they're up to

helsabots @ 2007-10-04T20:14:00

2007-10-05T00:16:17Z

.120

2007-09-15T16:16:28Z

1. we turn the noises that we
2. make early in the morning
3. into songs with beats and rhythms
4. you will never have to sing again
5. he tells me
6. you will never have to play your
7. red, hollow bodied guitar again
8. i tell him

.119

2007-09-13T05:37:03Z

1. I need
2. to know
3. who I
4. am alone

5. I am
6. so sorry

118.

2007-09-08T01:39:48Z

1. flowers
2. windows
3. books
4. bikes
5. phone call fights
6. red fruit
7. red vegetables
8. climbing trees
9. climbing stairs
10. twenty-one-year-old boys
a. playing guitar
b. reading thick books
c. sneaking around the library
d. drinking endless cups of tea
e. growing beards
f. just not knowing
g. leaving hair on my pillow
h. unable to climb trees
i. scared of the sun
j. rolling their eyes back into their heads
11. pine forests
12. apples
13. apartments
14. late movies
15. late walks
16. fake lakes
17. apples
18. apples
19. apples
20. just not knowing

helsabots @ 2007-08-25T23:20:00

2007-08-26T03:22:42Z

a pear + plum

116.

2007-07-25T15:00:14Z

1. I’ve started packing up all of my winter things;

2. the coats
3. the sweaters
4. a box of wool tights

5. They are snow proof, gust proof things